In an interview with Playboy in 2008, the Fall Out Boy musician said his battle with depression had brought him close to death — on more than one occasion. "The list of drugs I've been prescribed would read like a grocery list," he explained of his mental health struggles. Once, he noted, he "took a handful of Ativan," though he insists he wasn't thinking of killing himself. "I've never really called it a suicide attempt," he said. "I just wanted my head to be completely turned off."